Create Your Own!It's amazing
How you can speak
Right to my heart
Without saying a word,
You can light up the dark
The smile on your face
Lets me know
That you need me
There's a truth
In your eyes
Saying you'll never leave me
The touch of your hand says
You'll catch me
Whenever I fall
adapted from song "when you say nothing at all"
Tuesday, September 20, 2005
1, 2 almost 2 to 3 weeks never blog liao ba,... dunno y.. maybe lazy??? or trying out to stop blogging?? haha.. no la.. busy??? haha.. so confused... long blog today since so long never blog.. happy reading.....
ok la.. updating some of the things now..
17/09 - saturday
its a great fine day and auspicious day for cheers... its a monthly tedious procedure for cheers... cheers stocktake.. been thru once in my last stopover... now become msc ops.. bo bian also need to help up.. didn't regret helping out even though have to wake up at 6am to reach sch at 7.30am... the team were quite cooperative and they have quite a good team work... nice working wif them... haha.. of course, did auditing checks on drinks... fated... last stopover, i was counthing drinks and now doing auditing checks for it... fun counting all the chillers esp the freezer... haha... the whole stocktake ends around 4.30pm... so tired...
wanted to go home after that... instead, went out wif ray,.. so long never go to town or go out wif frens liao... maybe this past few weeks became a bit anti-social,.. haha.. cau got vcd accompany me? haha... dunno la... don make myself so confuse.. never contacted my frens at all.. i'm the one who don really take initiative ba... watch "longest yard" at cineleisure... the show very funny and nice.. a bit violent ba.. haha... wanna catch "brothers grimm" this weekend... heard that its a nice show... its tickets almost sold out everywhere.. actually wanna watch it today but all sold out.. haiz... never mind, there's always another time...
20/09 - sunday
wake up around 1+ pm.. haha.. so shiok having rest for so long... haha.. first thing when i switch on my hp, my gang called.. haha.. ask me to go play mahjong... i have no plans for today so i jus went.. haha.. with my gang, everything is fun... hehe... went clement house and played.. we are his regular mahjong mates already... took the last bus from woodlands home.. so fun... wanna go play again.. hehe...
21/09 - monday
first day of my block leave... sleep like a pig till 1+ pm..... the time to rest is everything i can enjoy this week after 4 months of continuous work... slack around at home the whole day.. thought of alot of things i block out mostly during all these months....
wat can i say wat i feel in my heart? so difficult to say it out.
the word "true frens" appear in my mind quite a few times a day. i wonder what might happen when tep is over and everything is back to the same.. lecture and tutorials... would everyone be the same as they were 6 months ago? luckily my relationship wif my gang is still the same... i think these 6 months are really a test for all of us.. a test of friendships? suddenly, i feel quite blessed with frens all around me... concerning me and advising me... this is really true friendship.. i really appreciate it so much...
also, had some disappointing friendship.. i guess it happens all the time when u are working... but nobody likes it... i'm contented now... thanks to god for giving me frens or even true frens that are around me everytime... guess there's some punishment to believe the wrong frens... after this incident, i became more mature and treasure my dearies more and more... to believe and trust a person can be easy and difficult. but to get hurt and disappointment from one of my true frens is a permanent damage.. it brought a deep scar in my heart that can't be erase forever................. this matter had actually been kept wif me for around 2 months till i finally think through it carefully and finally, given up... i don give up frens easily unless they given up themselves...
the fren is an angel to me as well as my confidante for some part of the time in my life.. during this time, everything seems so protected with my fren around me... knowing that this fren will keep promises and stay the same 4ever... its hurtful to be hurt and gotten disappoint from the fren that u trusted the most.... instead of getting treasured and really protected, getting lies, hurt and disappointments is all you got... not all yet... trust and believe had been gone in jus a flash for this person. instead, expanding hatred jus increase day by day without any mercy.......
of course, there's some hope.... the best way is to become jus a casual or stranger to this person... that's even a better way though... things that ppl can't imagine have to end up this way.... the best way is to ............ ?????????
forget it.... jus writing down the feelings that i'm trying to suppress this 2 months. really hate the matter for making me to suffer this 2 months... writing down is still the best way to cool myself down... writing down here will erase the feelings in my mind from today onwards. everyhing is only a flash on my mind... of course, it will definitely leave a scar somewhere and maybe a huge and long scar... after today, everything is over and back to normal.... jus like my dearie says, look around you and the skies.. u will feel nothing is changed around you... jus that u feel it changed when ur heart changes........ of course, the best thing is " Don't worry!!! Be happy!!!"** thinking hard, maybe some things are jus not the way i wan it to be... its jus my story... maybe there's a part 2 somewhere?
Tuesday, September 20, 2005
`` ddreamiing
