Create Your Own!It's amazing
How you can speak
Right to my heart
Without saying a word,
You can light up the dark
The smile on your face
Lets me know
That you need me
There's a truth
In your eyes
Saying you'll never leave me
The touch of your hand says
You'll catch me
Whenever I fall
adapted from song "when you say nothing at all"
Monday, March 07, 2005
Firstly, i think that i shouldn't scold the word "WTF" when i knew he's going korea to train.. Instead, i should be very happy for him as i know that it's his dream to go korea and train... should be very fun for him.. so good, can go korea... it's one of the countries that i wanted badly to visit next time.. hiah.... hope that he'll take pictures while he's over there and let me have a look.. but i don think this is possible because i dunno whether we could still be friends...
i would like to be friends with him and not a stranger...... hiah.. i dunno whether he would even talk to me........but i hopefully hope that one day he would msg me and talk to me...... hiah......
today was studying at home and i somehow cannot concentrate on it... i think of him while i was studying and its so funny that i have to keep on repeating memorising the notes in order to remember it.. too distracted liao...
went jogging at around 5 smt alone... sit at home the whole day very tired.. must do some exercises.. hiah... i jog around 4 rounds at the last lane-8th lane.. stamina weaker than before.. hiah.. long time never run already... actually, during my 3rd round, i already feel like giving up and stop running to rest.. but liang's words came into my mind.. "if u have the determination, u can do it..." and so, i manage to run finish the 4th round and was breathing so hard that i tot i was going to die-so exaggerating rite? haha... but its true..
even though my frens tell me to forget liang, i jus cannot stop thinking about him... he's the 1st ever guy to treat me so well and he's also the 1st guy that i treat so well... i feel that its fated that we are together for sometime or even still continuing on this relationship.. now i dunno whether he really wants to end this relationship anot... even though i'm the one who started all this, i already apologise and find ways to stop all these problems and return to where things has not happened... i dunno whether he wants to give me a chance to make up....
i think that he's very angry, disappointed or sad... hiah.... wat i can do now is to wait for his answer and reply.. i would very much wan to meet him for even once is enough... face to face talk to him............... and from then onwards, i will not disturb him anymore.. i hope that he will give me this 1 last chance...
like my fren says,"it takes a long time for 2 person to be in love in one another and a short time before they regret their decision and to cherish each other." its been since bout 2 and a half year that a guy touches my heart and slowly my heart melt for him... but so fast its beginning to harden again.. well, i think it really depends on fate whether we will continue this relationship.. i will respect his decision.. if he don love me anymore, he can jus send a sms to me and i will not bother him anymore.. but now, he's not even replying to my msg.. i dunno what's he's thinking in his mind...
i really hope that time can be reverse and everything is back to normal... but what happen is already happened and now it depends on him whether or not to end this relationship.... i think now, i should let him "cool" down till he's ready to face me again or tell me his decision....
i sincerely hope that this relationship can carry on... hiah... anyway, may god bless him throughout his journey to korea... be home safely... i'll be worrying for you.... hope that he could think over it..... hiah...... I LOVE YOU!
Monday, March 07, 2005
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